I know I've written posts before about feeling guilty about not being home, but I finally felt that little twinge of sadness when I was packing my stuff up today to fly back here that I was kind of sad to be leaving. Now the truth of the matter is that a majority of people that I had such a great time with were also parting their separate ways so it wouldn't be the same even if I was still there, but I am finally starting to feel the affects of the move. Which is good I think because I didn't want to be in this cloud of aloofness forever.
Anyway, it really was an absolutely great weekend. I saw so many great friends and spent lots of time with my family and I wouldn't have changed a thing- except leaving, but I had to so I couldn't really change that part :)
In three weeks I get to go back home for an even longer break for the christmas and new year holiday and I am really excited! There are some very close friends that I was not able to see this trip home, but I will have my car home with me (thank god) since I'm driving home and I will get to see hopefully everyone in a few weeks!!!
There's also a situation back home that I need to come to some clarity on. It's romantically related, and I know its really stupid to hang on to something that is back home when I should focus on the new possibilities here. But I can't help but think about what could be with this particular person if we had had a moment or two to ourselves this trip home which makes me hope for that opportunity in a few weeks :/ Dangerous territory and what can I say I am the girl that always wants what she can't have- but who ever knows what the future will bring :)
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